music therapy

I love music that utterly shakes you, makes you speechless, and makes you forget that you had a past and a future.  There's only the present moment of you and the tunes merged into one, when nothing else matters, except the air you breathe to keep it going.  I really think, one of the other ways to get through a breakup is to listen to music that grips your attention and stirs your soul.  I really miss jazz for that reason.  In the least likely places, while I was at Lenscrafters picking out a pair of black plastic frames, I heard jazz.  I tried not to smile.  There were 2 other frame stylists walking around, waiting for my "excuse me I'm done."  Words can't even express how the music made my heart dance like it hasn't for a while.  It connected to something deeper inside me, like a comfort blanket for my soul.  I wanted to hear more, taste more, sigh more.  Jazz makes everything in my life ok.  So does Ray LaMontagne and Chiara Civello.  Pure, raw, depressive yet optimistic voices enthrall me.  Acoutistc guitar does that to me too.  I love hearing a lonely longing voice in music; something that sounds like the person just craves more, and is constantly searching.  Searching for more, but for what?  Music reflects the emotional state you're in or want to be in; I'm just constantly searching for something.  Or maybe someone.

evenings

Delight in denial

savor the anticipation.

dance with it.

Tantric Ritual

and this was how i was seduced

S says (4:30 PM):
and your whole thing about "I'm healing/not ready?" ... 
S says (4:30 PM):
let me put this out there right now... I respect that, and I know it's real, but I also know that it's a shield for you.
S says (4:31 PM):
My view is that if I'm doing my thing right, you will heal and forget quickly enough

Time